I love fire... but maybe not in my house..and.. not the size of a big rice bowl.

Shit! Fire! What too do? Put it in the sink? Throw it outside? Put a blanket over it?

I'm not going to be the reason for a disasters!

So.. sat down so I got the same high as the fire.. and blow carefully. First reaction. Can't believe it work(ok with candle size). Hurried to close to the fire alarm and open up to get the smoke out.

I noticed it works to toast bread in the little fish grill. Just let them be some seconds and turn them around, let some pass again, and you have perfect toasted bread. Tho my seconds turned to minutes. I had luck that I noticed the fire so fast, it cud had end really bad. Never toast with the fish grill and do other things at the same time again.

After some food I decided to decorate my chocolate house. When I atlas where done, it broke. Got sad and just wanted to eat it all up, but it made me more sad you just let all work be a waste. So I took my lighter and started to try to put it together again. Broke once more before I had it done.

Happy with the result~
Not the best but not in pices.

1 week left

So sitting and wonder all the time; where to start tell about stuff that happen since I came to Ueda. Always end up just sitting and thinking with no update.
So decided to start write about days from now instead.

I where looking for a store named Donky. One of my favourite stores, so much fun stuff to find.

Tho, when I tried to find the one here in Ueda I suddenly find something else that reminded me of Donky, but a little bit better. Donky is mixed with fun unnecessary stuff to normal kitchen stuff, but this other store had more fun designee stuff.

From warm cloths to funny candy :)
Bought me a chocolate house. What? I don’t get any ginger house, then I shall have a chocolate house! Hehe.

Plans for Christmas? No. I where thinking about invite friends, cook good food and just have a nice time. But that needs planning! I really lost energy to do anything special.
I didn’t get the job my teachers had for me, but she got fast another. Same work, just another hotel. Got really worried..

So well, I'm starting 25th and are going to share room with some girls. Hate sharing room. Can't complain, get food and the room for free, so I just have to deal with it.

To morrow I will go and get my packet from home. Exited, been longing to get it. Would be happy to get it in my hands even if there are smelly socks in like my dad told me ;)

A christmass card frome home and my chocholat house.
Trying to think out a good candy designe on it.

So much to tell so little time

Whaaa, long time no see~

The internet plans didn’t go as planned, but now atlas I have it! So happy, and so broke! Just because I didn’t have internet to check my money, I really lost my money control. My family’s computer is even broken so I get a bit hard to get time to talk with them, hopefully I wouldn’t need to lend from them tho.

I got an job for the winter break. Makes me so happy, first time ever to have a job. Will go to a ski hotel and clean and serve some food for the guests. I get a free room, food and time over to ski for free, but I think I just will go around and take photos. Long time since I saw snow now.

I'm so happy I went to Ueda. My japanese is improving big time and I experience so much. One of my absolute best memories yet is when we went to see the fireworks in Nagano. Japan don't have fireworks at new year, so I want to enjoy it when ever I can. We got a perfect place to sit on (we even laid down)and we where so close. It was impossible to get everything in the camera when I tried to take photos, to close. With festival candy and surrounded by friends I hoped that the night would never end.

Instead of putting up 10000 of pictures, will I load up a movie~

Until then, enjoy this~ and some pictures

A normal day in class


I have really got better on cooking food.

Erika, Nathalie and me going to the Designe
fiesta eventetin Tokyo


Boght this in tokyo~ Pudding in a driking can


Succses to make my favorite swedish candy,marsipan.
These lovly waiting for get dipt in choklad.
Then I forgot to take a photo... ate them ..

Long time no see

So long time since I updated here. I still don't have any internet. 2 weeks more to wait. Longing.

I love my new home in Ueda, but I miss some places and some friends in Tokyo so I'm so longing for my trip. Erika, a girl from Philippine is joining me to Tokyo. Actually, I just wanted to go to Tokyo for an event, but suddenly it got more then just a convent trip.

Got the apartment. It's so nice and so big(well, for a japanese apartment for one person). A little dream place.

So much to tell that I don't even know where to start.

There are just 5 swedish here. I'm the only girl. Kinda funny to think about when there are so extremely many swedish in Tokyo.

I do everything by bike and been exploring a lot. The city is surrounded by mountains. I love it. Even stopt with the bike in the middle of the night just to see the stars for a while. There where hard to see in Tokyo.

Will take until the 12th for my to start updating as usual.

Love to cook my own food in the kitchen.
Experimenting alot.

My living and bedroom.
Got my self a kotatsu. A table that heats up.
Very classic in a japanese home. Its a cheaper way to
warm up then to use the ac.

Thank you~

A kinda normal party in Tokyo;D
(I'm not saying anything, got some comments "I" sound wierd)

Had a great bye bye party~
Still miss them and those who cudet come.
Had to choose a so bad day with a party.

Still in the stairs

Still have to go to the trap, so sitting here, eating some candy.

Fond a chocolate I used to buy in Tokyo, you get a kanji sticker with my favourite drawing style.
I can't get internet from my phone until I been visiting Tokyo. Will see my "apple master" to fix that. Thehe, just a friend I got in japan and help me a lot with the phone.

I'm going to get an apartment in this week, so I don't have to pay the unbelievable big amount money for the place i live in now.

Actually I don't get why it's so much money for this place. I mean, the rent is the same as the one I had in central Shinjuku. Well, if you stays longer it will be smaller price, but still, I will now pay the same amount of money in the apartment as the lowest single room in this place.

The toilets and showers are so bad, there is no point to clean it because the other who lives here. I have to get my own kitchen stuff and toilet paper. No, longing for my apartment, a bit far from school, but a hygienic place I make the rules in.

Cold

Brr, so cold.

So, I'm now in Nagano and sitting in the stairs to get internet. The internet in the school don't reach my room, but I'm trying to get in to my phone internet. Of course my phone miss one update so I have to update it myself. Taking some hoers.

Oh well, hopefully I have it done tomorrow, so I will continue the "stair meeting" for some while.

I like my new home and my new school, but there are 3 things that's making me crazy if I don't get an apartment. I haven't been exploring yet, but even if I just seen it from the window I love this place. Surrounded by mountains.

To morrow is the first the first school day and lots of stuff to day. I cud use some more break , but i really want to talk about an apartment in school.(really jealous at Fredriks apartment)

Already meet some new and partied with nomihodai. So I really thinks this is a good start here~

Waiting on the buss

Standing in the rain waiting for green light. So tired, even if I went to bed 11:00 I haven't been able to sleep until 9:00.

Went up 8:00 to start packing all stuff. Went really slow and got worried about how to move all stuff. Got done 17:00 and got help by Bea to post my stuff to my new home. This is a really expensive moth, but I'm glad I will save some money in the end.
As example, I will live in the new school, no travel money.

Got to see Nathalie a last time. She's going to take care of my sofa for 1 year;) But the easiest and cheapest way, where to put the sofa in a taxi, so paid her a taxi for the help.

Bea and I went to Akihabara to get me a 3DS and some cds for her. I see the 3DS as my own birthday present and Christmas present. The funny is that there are a game store in Nagano and in Nagano, everything is a bit cheaper, and I can still play my DS games in the 3D (sold the DS).

Got some food and then went to see Yukiko. Felt important to see her and I really don't want to be unable to see her. Made me worried.

I happy scream for a adventure, but at the same time, asking myself, "what I'm a doing?!"

I will go by myself and without knowing someone from the school, just take a deep breath and go to the fire.

At last Bea and I made a small early celebrating of Halloween with pumpkin pudding, strawberry cake, chocolate cake, pirikura and some game playing in the ufo catchers.

Soon I will have to go, so, I will upload photos on the latest days when I'm in Nagano.

So little time so much to do, wha!

the inactivate is because of lots of stuff to do before new school.
And, I have been working on a comic. There is just 3 pages now but hoping to get some more done before the break ends. So less time to write here, will be more after 7th.

Link to the comic
http://3spots.deviantart.com/gallery/25740272#/d4aoyqu

Schools over

So, time for autumn break. Of some strange reason I longing for all the red colour. I'm going to be at a perfect place to see the nature changing.

Yeas, it's confirmed, so I have to move. Just hope I get enough time to fix everything. I'm exited but still, so many things I will miss.

Friends, I'm sorry

So many lies, so many secrets, so much happiness, so much sadness, It's always complicated and build up wit so many different things. Never ok, always bad or good.

Much happens all the time. I never taught about how much you actually have to lie to become something. Who can you trust, who can't you trust?

I got a girl laughing in my face; "you don't have any friends!"

So many words fighter in my head. So what if I don't?! Is that a problem?! I been without friends for so many years and it will come more lonely years for my dream! It's not a problem to be alone!

But, I couldn’t say it. Other words suddenly stop me and so many flashbacks.
I.. have friends.. people who actually care about me.. sometimes some of them really put me in trouble.. but they always comes there to hold me up. People that never would do something on purpose to hurt.

I wanted to start cry. Why haven't I seen this before? I really think I'm always alone.. I always get so surprised when people reach out a helping hand.

I want to give them all something back.. but I have no idea about what..

If someone saw the girl and me fight, I think they would say she "won", doesn’t matter, when I realises/think to much at the same time my dyslectic makes me quiet. That's why I have problem to speak load in the classes.

She just wanted me to try hurt her so she cud get a laugh.. I just wanted to make sure a friend didn’t get in to really old stuff I almost myself forgot about.

I got mad, because she didn’t even listen on what I said, she just wanted me tog to get more mad. As a reflex I grab her neck and hair, something I always did on my sister when she didn’t listen to me. It’s a thing that just gives a little bit second pain to make the person listen, nothing that gives any wounds. Tho, they all got scared and taught I would slap her face.

Just because I have a different style don't I hit people.

I guess this was one of the best things that happen, I realised so much stuff that made me so happy inside. Everyone in the room cud laugh if they wanted, it didn’t matter, people can talk about this for years, it doesn’t matter.

I actually wanted to say "thank you".
We had test right after. This is the first time I never cried on a test. I couldn’t, just thought about stuff that waited on me and noticed I know much more than I expected.

After a lovly time in Akihabara with a friend I noticed a mail that made me even more happier. I'm now going to study so hard that my fingers will start to bleed. I'm so loonging while i watch some cartoon and cosplay books I got for free. Soon I will be there.

Thank you all for support and help.

Fika paus

In sweden we have like a special time for a little break with cookies and (often) a coffee. We call it "Fika". Depends on family to family there are different "rules".

Some have special cookies, and a special order you eat them in. Some even just have one cookie. Fika is also different impotent, some just have it once a week while some has it once a day. It even changes depending on how the daily life look.

For old people it's more impotent whit the same rules.

In my family you have to eat the most bread looking cookie first, then you can eat which cookie you want. Tho, are there cake, you have to eat at least 4/5 cookies before the cake. It's just because, if you leave something, your telling the one that gave you the cookies "I didn’t like it" even if your just stuffed but wants’ to try a small peace of cake. Often in my family, we make the cookies, so really impotent to not be impolite.

Home made cookies are really a "love" sign. People who actually don't have time, spend hoers to make cookies for there family or friends. That's even why some gets a bit upset when they notice the person who gave them "fika" haven't made the cookies. Tho, also most common with the old ones. The daily life makes it hard to even get a break with cookies.

To drink it's most common to have coffee, that’s why some even have start to say "coffee break". Tho "coffee break" doesn’t always include cookies. Kids often drink "Saft", a sweet drink often with flavour as blueberry, strawberry, elders, stuff you can make yourself in sweeden. I love when grandma and mom makes with elders, even my little sister has now started to make her own "saft".


So right now I sitting with my Coffee and a chocolate corner and thinking about tomorrow. The school give students a change to move to the school in Nagano with no extra cost, so tomorrow is a free school trip for the ones who wants to see the school. Nagano is a much smaller town then Tokyo. A country side of japan. I really feel that it would be good to move, it would be a calmer place to study in, and I don't want to be stuck in Tokyo. I want to study in a comic school in Tokyo later, but I want to see more then just Tokyo. I have seen Kyoto and Osaka, and I saw so much I can't see at the same way in Tokyo. I love Tokyo, but I hate to be stuck at the same place right now.

But will see tomorrow if I go, maby i change my mind when i see the school. There are so many things I will miss in Tokyo if i go. Many friends!

Soft day

At last, my bad mood have left me :)

But, I'm still so tired, my body haven't really want to get all power back, but some rest and it will be fine.

Today we didn’t really have school, we went to a place in shinjuku to.. erh.. check or lungs..?
actually, no idea. I didn’t get information about this day, but we were like.. hugging a machine one by one so they cud take a photo of the lungs... kinda...

Oh well, just because we where so close my home did Nathalie follow me home. For "dinner" we walk to Sweets paradise. I wanted to show her the cake bufe and the one in Shinjuku is so close my home. Just because, we decided to visit Designe fiesta in Harajuku. Love that place, and I wanted Nathalie to meet some good of my friends. We even find some shoes for Nathalie ;)

Last of all we walk back to Shinjuku for a Isakaya. Just so much talking about so much random and just stuff we had to tell each other etc..

A soft day..

I love naruto!

Ok, how many think I'm talking about the anime Naruto?

No~

Even if I been at really bad mood, have I been cooking some really good dishes. I'm really bad at cooking so I get so happy when I actually do something so good that I would have no problem to take a power nap after.

The head character Naruto is actually named after a little fishcake. Even, when they do joke about the fishcake and Naruto in one of the episodes is there people that never heard about the eatable naruto.

Udon (thick noodle), meat, naruto.
Naruto is tasting kinda like a crabstick.

Hard time

Really been hard weeks, but it's starting to lighten up.

Sorry to make so many worry. Hopefully, everything just go back to normal. Don't really what to say, just a really hard time. People really trying to make me talk about the problem, even if I just repeat "I can't, I don't find any words".

I miss a bit to drink Turkish tea and smell the ocean wind back in sweden. Need to do something to not think about that. Maybe a photo day, just walk around on my favourite places and take photos. Akihabara, Harajuku, Shibuya..

Just have to take a easy time..

ChibiTaki (c) Me